There are reset buttons on almost everything. So I figured why not hit the reset button on my career - my writing career that is. Even though I've been writing for years, I'm still a newbie and frankly, with this ever changing market, I've been in hover mode, trying to figure out what to do. I spent this weekend in a camper near a lodge a bunch of writer friends rented to escape our realities and as usual, I had a blast, but I'm still in a quandary on what to do with my career.
Then a sledge hammer hit me over the head (not literally) and I got it. I actually GOT IT!
Like most women, I listen to people, I gather opinions and do research. This can be helpful, but it can also cause doubt - the kind of doubt that holds you back. It can stop you from chasing your dreams or put a hold button on life. My mother always said the only holding me back was myself, and I have to tell you, I HATE it when she is right!
The sledge hammer helped me knock some of that doubt away. You see, 9 out of 10 times when I follow my gut, things work out for the best. I may not get what I wanted, but I am happy. The 1 out of 10 times, I usually fall flat on my face, but at least I learn something. It's time for me to follow my gut. It's time for me to acknowledge the self-doubt and deal with it. It's time for me to say 'Fuck it all' and chase my dreams.
So no more holding back professionally. No more wondering 'Am I really doing the right thing'. I'm going to follow my own advise and go for it.
You go girl!
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